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Imposter

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How long does it take to recognize that you are enough?  Not even just enough, more than enough!  For so long, I tried to hide myself.  I was always afraid people were going to find out I was a fraud, an imposter.  No matter what I accomplished, what others said about me, I didn’t believe it for myself.   I got a 4.0 in grad school.  I said it was just because it was an easy university.  Anyone could get a 4.0 there.   I was a teaching intern for 2 years.  I never got a bad evaluation from my mentor teachers, program director, or the principal of the school.  It was just because I was nice to everyone, students, staff, parents, that’s why I got good reviews. My next position was in a different town where I was a co teacher for 4 years.  My co teacher and I planned together, taught together, graded together, communicated together, she just couldn’t see that I wasn’t a good teacher.  I was so skilled at hiding how bad I...

100% Single Parent

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  100% Single Parent Hello, my name is Katie, and I am a single mother.  I have full custody of my daughter and I have MS.   Single parents and only single parents completely understand this.  Single parents with MS get it even more.  I did not understand until I suddenly became one myself with a text that said, “I think we should get divorced.”  God, I haven’t told anyone that because I was so embarrassed.  At the time, he wasn’t living with us and hadn’t been for 3 months.  We weren’t separated, either.   It is complicated.  He hadn’t been around for 3 months really, and I was doing everything on my own.  Towards the end of that 3 months, he was around a little until he wasn’t.  After those 3 months, he was around a little and then he was completely gone.  I was the parent 100% of the time.  Everything was on me.  All of the love, all of the care, all of the safety.  All of the bills and appointm...